to talk about possibilities.

In the past week, i've found myself getting closer and closer to God.

Through Younglife last wednesday morning, reading other blogs, and reading the Bible, God has really worked in my life.

This week has been full of tears, smiles, and realization.

By the end of the summer, someone extrememly close to me will be going off to college.

i'm so used to seeing him every day, it will be harder that i can imagine.

However, with God's help, i'm beginning to look on the brightside of the situation.

He'll be starting a new chapter of his life, going to school for and learning more about his true passion:

golf.

I know that even when everything seems bad, with God on your side, you can always make it happen.

And i realized that with that with the right faith and dedication, we can make the best of the next two years and we can definitely get through it

<3

This brings me to the second part of this post.

Tuesday night, i decided to have a movie night and watch one of my all-time favorite movies,

Facing the Giants

i absolutely love this movie.

it's based on one of my favorite Bible verses,

"through God, all things are possible"

This movie is a huge inspiration to me. it taught me that with God on my side, i can do anything i want to do.

with Him, i will meet my father.

with Him, i will find my passion.

with Him, i will make a difference one day.

If you haven't seen this movie, i highly encourage you to.

it's probably one of the best movies ever made.

(although some of the acting is pretty bad)

"Through God, all things are possible"

<3



for an explanation.

Just as a warning, this post is extremely long, so I don't blame you if you don't want to read it. I just had to get it out.

I figured this would be a good way of venting.

People often ask me if I was named after the breadcompany.

or if my mom named me Sara Lee because she used to work there.

(which, by the way, is true)

So I decided I would write this blog to explain things.

To start off, no, I wasn't named after the bread company (or any other company)

But here's the whole story.

I was actually born Sara Elizabeth Reich.

But, when I was 2, my mom and my birth father got divorced and he left. completely out of my life alltogether.

So, my mom and I lived with my grandma until I was like, 4.

Then, she met a man and they dated for a while and we moved into a house with him down the road from my grandma's in Winston.

Well in 1999, they got married.

My mom didn't want me to go through life with a last name that came from a man that I didn't even know, so her husband (Louis Lee) legally adopted me so I would have his last name.

From then on I called him "Daddy" and I considered him to be my real father.

Well, when I was in 4th or 5th grade, my dad began to change.

Every day, he would come home in a bad mood and yell at me and my mom. sometimes worse than others. Some nights it got to a point that I had to lie in bed awake until I knew that they were done arguing so I could go to sleep; which sometimes would be past midnight. I loved my mom more than anything in the world and I always thought that he would hurt her. That, thankfully, never happened.

But, when I got to middle school, it started getting worse. I literally prayed that they would get seperated so I wouldn't have to listen to it all the time. So, in 7th grade when my mom told me that they were finally seperating, I was overjoyed. 

A few weeks later, he moved into an apartment. 

Later on though, my mom told me that we were selling our house. I loved that house. My room was exactly the way I liked it and our backyard was perfect. We had a creek nearby and a place where our dog could run and play. I grew up in that house and I couldn't believe I would be leaving. Although, I agreed with my mom when she said there were too many bad memories there for us to handle. 

I was devestated. 

I've lived in 4 different houses since the beginning of my 8th grade year.

My dad never got better, though. He only got worse as the years went by. 

This past summer, we had the biggest fight of them all. 

I've never been able to stand up to him before, but when he called me on that day in August scremaning at me for nothing, I had to stand up for myself. I told him I wouldn't talk to him that I wasn't going to talk to him again. (childish I know, but i really couldn't bring myself to talk to him anymore.) and my mom told him that he wasn't allowed to come to our house or call me again. 

2 weeks ago was the very first time I talked to him since then. 

He didn't act like anything happened. 

I never hold grudges, but after all the things he's done to hurt me, there's no way I can ever truly forgive him.

I honestly can't stand having his last name. 

I feel like it's just haunting me. 

I don't want to have the last name of someone who is so mean and nasty. 

Right now, I want more than anything to go back to the last name I was born with. 

The man might have walked out of my life and not tried to get to know me, but at least he didn't do anything to emotionally hurt me. 

The only way I can change my last name back is if I can get my father's permission and his signature. 

One of my top priorities right now is to find him, meet him, and get him to sign that paper. 

I hope and pray that one day, I can just be called Sara Reich again. 

<3 

time for a flashback.

2010

Lately, I've been thinking about just how amazing last year really was.

Ever since 7th grade, I have had a problem with friends and always getting into drama. There hasn't been one year since then that has been drama-free...until 2010 that is. Last year was the first year that I went without drama and losing friends.

It was the year my freshman year ended, and the best summer started.

aka took me with her and we had the best time I think I've ever had at the beach.

I took a trip to the beach with blv and his family. then he came with us too (:

I went on the best mission trip everrrr.

I had the most amazing sweet 16 a girl could ask for.

So, there's absolutely no doubt 2010 was the best year yet.

Hopefully 2011 will be even better (:

time for an introduction.

I'm Sara. (probably the most common girl's name. ever.)

Blogging is definitely a new thing for me. I love to write, but I never do it...mainly because I'm terrible at it. But, here goes nothing.

Some things about me:
-I'm one of the easiest people to get along with.
-I always smile, and when i'm upset, I try my absolute best not to show it.
-I live for God, and him only. <3
-I'm extremely close to my family. They get me through everything.
-I believe in the saying "forgive and forget," therefore, I never hold grudges.
-I have three major long-term goals for life:
        one-To find and meet my biological father.
        two-To find something that I'm really passionate about.
       three-To make a difference.
-I have the absolute best friends in the world.

This is my mom.

Through a childhood of struggle and hardship, she always knew how to keep me on my feet.

4 years of having to be a single mother never stopped her from being the best mother in the world.

Between her and I, there are no secrets. I can always count on her to be an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on.

She's my best friend.

This is Mamu.

The best grandmother that has ever walked the planet.

I strive to be exactly like her when I'm her age.

She's a devoted mother, sister, and grandmother.

In my whole life, not once have I heard her say a mean or harsh word to anyone. ever.

She's the strongest woman I know.

84 and always out mowing or raking leaves.

Her love for the Lord and her family is incredible.

She is my biggest inspiration.

This is Sydney.

My best friend. period.

No matter what stupid thing i have to complain about, she's there to help me.

Her smiles and laughter are contagious.

When we're together, there's never a dull moment.

She's the sister I always wanted as a little girl.

This is Ab.

My best friend since first grade.

Our friendship has been like a roller coaster;

fun and exciting at times, and then there were times when we wanted to scream our heads off.

The majority, however, has been full of great memories.

whenever I need someone to talk to, no matter what time of day, she's there.

I honestly don't think I could've gotten throught these past ten years without her.

This is Ben.

This is the guy I look forward to waking up to see.

The one I would do anything for.

The one who always listens.  

The one who never gets mad and never holds things against me.

The one who loves God more than a lot of people I've met.

The one I look up to and admire.

The one I think about more than I think about myself.

The one who I never want to walk out of my life.

The one who loves me uncondtionally.

The one who has my heart.

The only one for me.

<3

But, I think that's all that needs to be said.

Welcome to my blog (: