Today was probably one of the hardest days i've ever had.
today was the day that i said my final goodbye to one of my bestfriends since 5th grade.
Today, this amazing girl, her parents, and 5 of her siblings began their journey to california.
since we became friends in the middle of our 5th grade year when she moved here from new jersey, she has made a huge impact on my life.
she and her parents brought me closer to God.
not once have i ever been mad at her, nor has she been mad at me.
we've never had a fight.
we've never even had an argument.
she has taught me what a true friend really is.
a true friend is someone who loves you for who you are; who stands up for you when people talk about you; who always has positive things to say about the worst situations; who picks you up when you fall; who dries your tears when you cry; who always knows how to make you laugh; who will jump on the trampoline and take pictures with you for hours on end; who will invite you over for her little sister's birthday party so she isn't stuck alone with a bunch of little girls; who paints your nails and gets you cold washcloths when you have a migraine.
a true friend is someone who loves you and sticks by your side no matter what.
this girl is definitely a true friend.
she always knows how to make me smile.
this morning, aka, ecb and myself went to becca's house to say our last goodbyes for an hour before school.
because i only found out she was moving about a week and half ago, it never really had time to sink in. driving to her house at 6:20 this morning is when it finally did. i kept thinking to myself,
i can't belive this is really it. maybe they won't really leave.
i just wanted it to somehow end up all being a dream.
but as i drove down the familiar dirt road and pulled into the keener driveway, the huge, yellow moving truck is what made it all real.
they were leaving.
this really was going to be goodbye...for who knows how long.
after we all got there, we decided to make the best of this last hour with becca.
despite the cold and dampness, we went outside and took some crazy pictures.
then came the time to say goodbye.
since we were all having fun, the feeling of sadness hadn't really come yet.
after saying goodbye the family, it came.
we stood in the driveway, and just looked at one another, looked at the house, the moving truck, the empy garage which was normally stuffed to the top, everything. just making the memories all come back so we could remember them all.
abby was first.
when she hugged becca, the tears instantly came to all of our eyes.
after she hugged all three of us, we still couldn't bring ourselves to leave. we stood there and just cried for a few minutes.
after two group hugs, it was time to go.
abby, emily, and i all slowly and sadly walked to our cars.
when i got in and started the engine, i cried like i haven't in a while.
i backed up and as i was going down the road, i looked back at the little house, and becca walking back through the front door.
all i could think was,
wow, this really is the last memory i will ever have at this house.
all the way to the civic center, i cried.
today was different,
just knowing that one of my best friends was about to leave for a thirty-eight hour drive across the entire country made me sad for the rest of the day.
i couldn't get into my normal, happy mood, and the rain just made it even more gloomy.
becca,
although i will miss you an extremely insane amount, i know this adventure will be great for your family. this is what you guys need. i know this won't be the last time i see you; california is a long way away, but nothing can keep me from going to see you (:
i will always consider you one of my best friends.
no matter how many miles away you are.
you've taught me a lot since the day we met, and i cherish every memory we have.
i love you.
and i always will
<3
