yesterday had to be the most amazing day ever.
if you haven't read my previous blog posts, this may be confusing so i would advise reading the other one.
for the past few years, all i've been able to do is hope and pray to find my real father.
all this time, i knew i had two half brothers and a half sister (who i share a father with), but it never quite hit me to look for them.
well monday night, my mom told me to set up a facebook page with the name Sara Reich, then try to look for my brothers, Torrey and David, and my sister, Amber.
so i did that and added a photo of my father, mother and i right after i was born.
i typed in the names in the search bar and to my surprise, it didn't take long to find torrey and amber. and after sending them a friend request explaining who i was, i sat at the computer and waited.
here comes the wow moment.
last night, i decided i would get on and just see if either one of the accepted me as a friend.
my eyes were immediately drawn to the little red box saying i had one unread message.
with my hands shaking, i clicked on the message.
torrey's message definitely surprised me. i hadn't expected a reply so quickly.
he said that he had only had a facebook account for a couple of months, and the reason he got one was to search for me. here i was, all this time, thinking i was the only one that cared; the only one that wanted to meet the other half of my family. and come to find out, i had been wrong the entire time.
just reading his message brought me to tears.
we asked questions about each other and exchanged phone numbers and other information so we are able to keep in touch in other ways than just facebook.
finally, i asked the question that part of me was afraid to ask.
i feared the answer to this question would be more than i could handle.
the wait for his reply seemed like ages.
but when i saw the words, "dad lives in myrtle beach," my heart only started beating faster; this time from excitement rather than fear.
he told me that our father had been a major disappointment in his, david's and amber's lives. he said he doesn't want me to be even more hurt by him than i already have been.
meeting my father is my top goal in life, and being disappointed is just a chance i'm willing to take.
even if my father does disappoint me or upset me, i knew right then that i would always have torrey. i knew that now that we are finally in touch after all these years, neither one of us would lose it.
after saying good night to my big brother, i was about to click on the "log out" button on facebook, when another red notification came up and said i had another unread message.
amber.
this was unbelievable.
excitement again overtook me and i read her message over and over.
she said she has also been searching for me and wanting to meet and talk to me.
this was the most amazing thing.
two long lost siblings found, both in one day.
amber and i also exchanged numbers before going to bed.
last night was just one of those amazing nights when you can feel God's love shining down on you. After thousands of prayers going up to Him, asking Him to guide me in the right direction, they have now been answered. i had always wondered, "why can't God just answer my prayers now?".
I know now that He has a plan for each and every one of us.
He will always guide us in the direction he wants us to go.
some of those directions may just be trials and tests, but He knows that these are the only ways to get us to learn.
He hears each and every one of our prayers, but He is the only one who can choose when they will be answered, and it will always be when He knows is right for you.
His plan is different for everyone.
Never lose hope.
Never lose faith.
Never stop praying.
Never stop listening.
Never stop loving.
Never stop believing.
Never doubt the Lord.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future."
Jeremiah 29:11
