the PERFECT time

well hello again.
it's probably been a year since i've even looked at this site,
but i thought today might be the perfect time to return.
holding my stress and feelings inside just won't do any longer.

i always pictured my senior year to be fun and exciting,
i always thought that by my senior year i would be so ready to leave,
to get out of my house,
to get out of this small town that sometimes seems to smother me.
never would i have imagined how bittersweet this year would be.
full of stress,
full of memory making,
full of new best friends that i couldn't imagine my life without
full of "last times"
and last but definitely not least, full of heartache and confusion.

since august, my life has actually changed almost completely.
a couple of my relationships have ended
but i've gained the frienship and bond with some of the most amazing girls i've ever met.
these four girls have taught me the value of true friendship
and how to make the best out of the worst situations.
never in my life would i have pictured myself best friends with these girls (again)
but boy am i glad i am now.
to you guys, y'all are the best friends i could ever ask for.
thank you for absolutely everything you do for me.

 

 

and to yet another best friend i gained this year,

one that i can talk to about anything,

thank YOU.

you're truly the best

 



the stress of senior year is also unbelievable.
by may 1, i HAVE to make a decision..
THE decision.
i have to decide which amazing campus i want to call my home away from home for the next four years
and this is the hardest decision i've ever had to make.
the stress keeps piling each time i receive anything in the mail from on these three colleges.
this past week, i realized that God has been talking to me
he's been talking to me through the people i've been around,
since monday night during our younglife lesson to last night when i found that i was denied from one of my top choices for college,
God has been speaking.
actually, it started when one of my friends led me to a college that i never thought i would even apply to. one of which gave me a scholarship and the opportunity to join their teaching fellows program.
recently, i've been thinking that this could be where He has planned for me to go.
still though, i continue to pray and as of last night, i have put it all into His hands.
He will lead me to the college that He has planned for me and there is no doubt in my mind that i will make the right decision.

 

 

to end this blog, i again just want to say thank you to my amazing friends

thank you for being there for me when others aren't

thank you for keeping me on my feet

and always listening to my pointless rants

thank you for always giving me the best advice

and keeping all of my dumb secrets

i honestly couldn't ask for better friends and i love you ALL more than any of you know.

 

and thank you to one who gave me the opportunity to live another day

thanks to Him for letting me give him each and every one of my problems and sources of stress.